I won't bore you with tales of where I've been -- physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. Suffice it to say that I'm back! I've had really crappy weigh-ins the past few weeks, which shouldn't surprise anyone (including me), and I'm expecting another crappy one on Tuesday.
This has been so much harder for me than I expected it to be. I'm still waiting for my first fill (30 Sept), so I can eat just about anything ... and I do. I've gotten stuck a few times and had a couple of PBs. It seems I can't eat rice, even though I can eat everything else (pizza, anyone?). I need to get back to some kind of plan, and write everything down (yawn) that I eat. I am exercising every day (walking each evening), and am about to kick it up to twice a day, since I can't go very far/long at a time. I'm generally feeling okay about myself, but could always feel better.
I was doing dishes this evening and I remembered reading on someone's blog (no idea whose. sorry.) about the correlation between blog posting and success. I want to be successful at this, so I'm going to make a commitment to blog at least three times a week -- Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I think it will help keep me honest and feeling as though I have some kind of accountability and support. The people who love me are doing their damnedest to be supportive, for which I'm grateful, but sometimes I need the support of people who have either been where I am or are here now. Besides, I've missed you all!
See y'all Monday!
We all have our ups and downs... before our first fill, is a down for all of us. We have little to no restriction and head hunger galore. I am not going to tell you that it will always be easy after you get some restriction. I have had a bad week myself recently, so I am trying to rededicate myself to true success which for me is eating healthy and snacking in moderation, and revving up my activity level each week. *Maria*-blogger from "This one time at BAND Camp..." Follow my journey at mybigfatbandgeeklife.blogspot.com
ReplyDeleteDon't get down before you have restriction. It is hard - I could eat anything for a looong time. If we were successful dieters we wouldn't have gotten the band. You definitely have support here.
ReplyDeleteI am ssoo glad to see you back here! I have been thinking about you--and starting to get a tad worried. Welcome back!
ReplyDeleteMissed you, hun! I know it's frustrating at the beginning because it's hard to feel like you even have a band...it does get better, though.
ReplyDeleteBandster hell sucks!! The time after surgery and before you start getting fills. No restriction = hunger, and consequently disappointment. Bandster hell is famous for some weight gain. I gained 5 pounds from the time I started on mushies until I started getting fills. Try not to be hard on yourself, we all went through this and came out the other side and onto smaller and better bodies. You're doing great...you will be fine...just breath :)
ReplyDeleteThe beginning is always hard but it does get better and it's so worth it. Hang in there!
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